What happened to me?

I don't know what has happened to me... well I kind of do but I never thought it would change me for good. Before dating my fiancé, I was a very sexually active person. Not that I was sleeping with everyone. But the guys I slept with, you can say, we had a very kinky relationship. I used to watch porn all the time, masturbate, play with myself and send it to my ex boyfriend. I would send naked pictures. My ex would also masturbate to my pictures and for some reason I kind of liked it. It gave me some sort of confidence. I was always horny and during sex I was very active. VERY. I would leave guys wanting more. (no brag) I was very confident when it came to sex and how I looked. Everyone liked me a lot. Liked Having sex with me as much as I liked having sex with them. I would have sex with my ex anywhere. And another major thing, I WAS TOTALLY FINE WITH PORN.

Then... I met my fiancé. We had an active sex life. It was amazing. Sex all the time. But we were still dating at the time, go out get drunk get home and have sex.

I moved in, got pregnant. During my pregnancy as most women go through this, my hormones were craaaazy. I was always horny. Continued to watch porn. I know, kind of weird cause I was pregnant but I couldn't help it. My fiancé was always tired and I know now that my belly kind of got in the way each time and all we were able to do for 5 months straight was doggy style. So I can understand why he wasn't so into it. He wasn't cheating.

So I had the baby... waited a couple of weeks to have sex. But when I was ready, I wasn't craving sex AT ALL. I couldn't even get wet. I tried thinking of sexy porn scenes I had seen before but didn't work. Tried looking and touching my fiancé, didn't work. Played with myself, nope. Nothing was working.

I googled it and it turns out its kind of normal to feel that way after giving birth. So okay, months passed by. It's now been 7 months since I gave birth. My sex life improved with my fiancé BUT I still do not crave sex like I used to. Yes, i crave it sometimes but it's definitely different. I don't ever watch porn, it just doenst cross my mind anymore. The few times it does, I have no interest in it. Don't get horny. NADA. Obviously I don't show these signs. I love my fiancé, love to have sex with him but I feel like a part of me is way too much of a parent now.

Also, my fiancé isn't a very kinky person. Tired sending him pictures when I had first moved in, he would like them but not Show a lot of interest. We won't just have sex anywhere, that's just not him. He's always running everywhere. I tried doing a sex video, he didn't want to. Said it takes too much effort LOL. He's not boring during sex. He pulls my hair, we have rough sex. But I'm also not the same anymore. I hardly ride him, I'm too lazy. He has bought me lingerie which I wear here and there and we have amazing sex but something is just not the same.

I feel like we're both now just focused on being parents and makin money. We hardly go out. But I understand, he's a contractor so he's so tired each day. Works 14 hours a day. He wants to sleep in on the weekends. I stay home with our daughter. I'm always just focused on her, cleaning and cooking. I'm just a "housewife"

Why am I not even interested in porn anymore? Why do I feel uncomfortable playing with myself when I am alone? Why am I not kinky anymore. And trust me; my fiancé doenst even know that I would do all those things before. He sees me as this normal woman who isn't kinky at all. And I am only 21 years old. My Fiancé is 34, if that matters.