Dating 2 People

Now I'm going to clarify, I'm not exclusive with either one, and they know about each other; but I know I'm going to have to make a decision eventually.

One is amazing, the connection we have I've never felt any other time, the sex is amazing and he's a sweetheart, and there's just this passion.

We were exclusive before and he randomly left me because he was stressed out about other things. Cons; I'm always worried he's going to leave again or be unsure and he may be moving soon due to a career move (he's a doctor.) And our "dates" are just me cooking for him and then we have fire sex, we've never really "gone out," which I'm content with but I feel like it's another distance thing for him. He reassures me, but I don't feel like I can count on him cause I'm always there for him when he needs support, encouragement or help, (he has severe anxiety and depression) but whenever I need him (I have anxiety and depression as well) he disappears or says he's in too bad of a headspace to hear me out or he just ignores me.

Two is amazing, he's very romantic and is sure on all his decisions. But I don't feel the same passion, I feel something but it's not as strong with the first one, and that's the only con. Other than that, he takes me out, shows me off to his friends, reassures me when I need it, and is in general there for me. (no we are not having sex)

I met him on the break from the first one, and we haven't decided to be exclusive in either respect, and I'm going to reiterate that they know about each other.

I feel like the second guy is the safer option, but I don't think I'll ever find the same passion as the first one. I just cant handle another heart break, and he lets me down a lot and makes me feel worthless and like I have no one.

Sorry if none of this makes sense, I'm just overwhelmed and my best friend is in another country right now so I have no one to talk to and I don't know what to do.