I just want to

Be skinner. And actually feel pretty. Like damn I know it wasn't quite 3 weeks ago that I had my second baby. But I am just so tired of being fat and flabby and a beached whale. I'm tired of not having friends. I'm tired of having no one to talk to. I'm tired of crying. I just want my husband to look at me and think damn she is the prettiest person alive. I want to actually enjoy me being in a picture. Not well fuck all you see is my double chin. Or god I just am a beached whale. I don't know I guess I just come here to vent because I don't have anyone to talk to.