Suicidal. (Vent)

Im so torn inside. I hate myself & I hate the skin Im in. Everything is wrong with me from head to toe. Literally. I was born with webbed toes on my 2nd & 3rd toe (right foot). I have chicken skin on my legs. It's very bumpy, dry, & itchy. I've tried many creams and lotions but nothing has worked. I also have 2 big patches of dry skin (i think) on my legs. I've told my mom to take me to the doctor & she simply tells me she's not wasting her time. I feel like that's all I am. A waste of time. I have a lump on my right eye, some doctors have said it's fat from my forehead, others tell me it's a tear gland cyst. I have little blister like bumps on my hands & they're now getting on my lips. I am so embarrassed & I hate my body. Myself. My skin. My life. Nothing ever goes my way. I don't even have friends.