Relationships

Been with my bf for more than 3 1/2 years, and I'm going to be a junior this fall. I love him but I want to love myself. He has a great future going he is a good guy and everything you could almost want, but I just want to have fun. I would like to go to parties, flirt a bit, NOT do the nasty, but sometimes I just want to worry about me. ( mind you I never did any of this before , were each other's first serious relationship ) I know he is going to make a name for himself and be a great father ( we've talked about kids ) but I just want fun rn. Idk what to do.