Relapsing

So… I was diagnosed with chronic depression last year, and started medical treatment seven months ago.

Last month (early July) my psychiatrist and my psychologist agreed I was no longer on a "depressive phase". We even talked about gradually reducing my medication so I could live without antidepressants.

I swear I was doing fine. But then I relapsed… again.

I've been trying to fight back for almost three weeks but I still can't find the energy or the strength. Now I'm on that stupid phase where I don't even know if I really want to get better. I just can't find a "really good reason" to fight, and that scares me too much. I don't recognize myself anymore. This is not me but I don't know how to push away all these negative thoughts.

Any advice??? Please!!!