Feeling sorry for myself like the idiot i am XD

Most people get to be pretty or smart and i got neither. I was never pretty except as a little kid which doesnt count, being smart didn't last long either. I weigh 90 kgs and i try and try to lose weight, i eat better and healthier than most of my friends and theyre all skinny and pretty while im obese. They always imply i dont try to lose weight or dont know anything about it. They all imply i know nothing about anything or that im insane or stupid all the time. They make fun of my boyfriend infront of me constantly. Mum always tells me that the good people outweigh the bad but thats not true, im surrounded by bad people and the very few good people i know of want nothing to do with me. I dont want to be friends with my friends because they are terrible people, but i have nobody else to even attempt to be friends with because most people are bad people, and the good people cant stand me. I stay friends with them because i figure its better than going insane from being alone. This isnt me being over dramatic or delusional thinking everyone hates me, this isnt me blaming everyone for my problems, this is me adressing the world around me and i fucking hate it. I try to be a nice person but thats never got me anywhere. Anyone that wants to tell me im probably beautiful or smart can go to hell because its rubbish and nobody thats ever said that has said it without at one stage or another inplied otherwise.