Ptsd worries..

August 18- boy friend ejaculted via mastubation.

August 19-20 boy friend urnatied as regular so any left over sperm from the 18washed out/died in uretha.

August 20th- I was 6-4 days past ovulation window (not sure when I ovulted) but was having creamy cm and cervix was up to middle finger's second knuckle.

August 20- boy tore open corner of trojan thin condom. It was facing with roll up. He rolled it down over penis. We tried submissive, doggy, girl on top. Last less then 10 mins. No ecajulation occurred.

August 21-24- i've had dry/creamy cm. Much like pictured below. Tender breast. Peeing a lot past two days (then again, i have had soda and tea and Starbucks lot the past few days and all caffeinated), black heads. Cervix is either right at or just before my middle finger's second knuckle. When i feel my cervix the opening feels squishy and like an semi-open hole. Kinda feels like my finger does fit into it but also ify on that. Today my left ovary/pelvic bone aches/burned/pressure

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I'm on day 27. My periods usually are 28-32 days. The longest is 37 which would be september 5th.

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Me and my so, are afraid that during the switching of positions, as the condom wearing penis would come out of me, then we would move into postion then slide it back in, and even though it last less then 10 mins that it cause holes in the condom and even though he had been bathroom since last ejacultion chances of any living sperm in the urethra beginning bought to the surfec via the pre-cum is unlikely.

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I am medically diagnosed with anxiety and also ptsd from being rapped my consular says that me being worried and paranoid about sex and child-conception is part of my ptsd. so please do not conjole, belittle, call me stupid, crazy, or unmature.

I do have a test ready to use. I just want some opions on if you think i'm ok and it's just my ptsd making me worried, etc

Below is the cm i am having besides the dry: