... I feel discusting... sorry for long post...

I was at Wal-Mart and got a salad because I have body issues and I don't want to get any fatter then I already am, but I have to eat cause otherwise my mom will scream at me. so I told them when I got it, I wanted to eat it in the truck, and they both said that was okay, and so we finished shopping and I was actually exited to eat, seeing as I haven't eaten properly in about 2 months and I've been up since 5am. my father then proceeds to yell at me how im not allowed to eat A SALAD in his truck bc it will be messy and I don't need to eat anyways, so I get in the truck and start fighting tears because my stomach hurts and I feel like my dad thinks I'm fat, just like I do. I never planned on putting dressing in it because I was gunna try not to make a mess. but nope. so now I'm sitting here, feeling like I'm going to throw up and trying not to cry bc I feel so fucking obese but want to eat for the first time in about a month... Idk this is just a rant.... sorry for wasting your time...