Dear the one messing w my head

Why did you have to reach out to me again? Why are you making me anticipate your texts? I don't like you for making me want you again. We can't pick up where we left off and pretend like it never happened. I don't have the strength to do this again and I don't know what I'd do if you tossed me aside like you did last time. I can't be your girlfriend, I get that, but I also can't settle for just being your lover. I just don't know how to tell you that right now.