I Want To Go Home

Hey everyone! I've been at my college for two weeks now, classes started last week, and I cannot stop crying. I keep thinking about home and I start to cry and it's awful like weeping sobs. I've always struggled with depression and eating disorders and everything is so overwhelming. Even typing this makes me want to bawl even more. A friend who went to the same high school as me just went home - like I just helped her pack and she got in her car and drove home and the entire time I just wanted to go with her.

It isn't my college because the campus is beautiful and everyone is amazingly kind - I just want to go home. It's terrible like I am always ready to cry and I'm six hours from home. I'm a person that's never liked change I like my routine but I thought I could do this and more and more I hate it. I've started self harming again which is something I haven't done in years and I'm just so unhappy and miserable.

Is it normal to feel like this?? I miss everything familiar about my home like this campus isn't home to me and I just. I want to go home so badly it hurts😞