I am going to have a mental breakdown.

if I have to act or be happy for one more friend who got pregnant on their first or second month TTC I am seriously going to have a mental breakdown. it pains me so bad to plaster a smile on my face and pretend the tears I am crying are happy ones. don't get me wrong. I am happy for them. But more of me is so excruciatingly jealous and not understanding why life is so unfair for me. I have had 3 miscarriages and have been trying for 8 months since for my sticky bean. I have since witnessed 5 of my closest friends fall pregnant within 2 months of TTC... and they all have had successful pregnancies thus far.

My heart cannot take it anymore. I am so exhausted... Thank you for letting me rant on the only place I can speak the truth about this.