2 year difference

my goal as a mommy was to have my babies close together so my first was born aug 2015 (living) and my second was supposed to be born july 2017 (still born). i work in the service industry (hairstylist) so we have conversations. i just had a client who had a daughter tell me they are expecting a second 😢 and are going to have the gap i so badly wanted for my babies. i want her back so bad i want to live the reality i dreamed of for babies 😣 sigh can i wake up from this night mare 🙁