Not as excited over #2 😓

Anyone else?? I feel so guilty. With our first it's all we could think/talk about. We were so so excited about everything with her. This baby was a surprise at the worst possible time.

My sister has lost 2 babies this past year so my family NEVER talks about ours. She even said she wants to be left out of all things baby related.

My husband just quit his job right before we found out to go back to pharmacy school so we have no money and no more room in our tiny 2 bedroom house. Our marriage is rocky right now all around.

Sorry, I'm totally venting. I feel like I could never say that to anyone I know because so many friends/family members would do anything to be pregnant and here I am wondering how this could happen. 😞 My insane hormones aren't helping either. 😬😭