Background info:

I've been having pap smears since I was 18 and I know that's young. I was raised by my Jehovah Witness grandparents, so I knew about sex and different body functions by the time of was in preschool simply because they believed you were supposed to know those things. Well I got a yeast infection when I turned 18, they said it was caused from me being too stressed. Then after that cleared I got a bacterial infection. It went back and forth like that for year. So that's why I started so young. I've had many pap smears and I used to find the only uncomfortable thing about it was the clamp and that wasn't even very uncomfortable to me.

Current status:

Now I'm about to be 22 in November, I'm married, and we have a little girl coming in about 4 weeks. I'll be doing my third pap smear this week and I'm beyond freaking out. The pap when I found out I was pregnant was like every other one I've ever had before, not very uncomfortable and a peice of cake. Came back with great results. Second one I had to switch doctor's for moving and she refused to wait for my paperwork from my previous doctor and that pap smear hurt. BADLY. It hurt the whole time it was being done, I voiced that it hurt and yet was ignored, and the the next two days after it hurt so bad I thought my uterus was going to fall out and I couldn't even sit down without paid shooting through me to the point I stayed in bed trying not to move because I would bust out on tears for the pain, I was frightened of losing my baby but there wasn't any blood that I saw. Reaults came back as everything normal. When I tried to tell the doctor about the pain she said it was normal, smiled at me, and said i should trust her because she is the doctor.

My situation:

Well now I'm on week 36 and my last appointment I tried bringing up the pain again when they told me I'd be receiving another pap, she smiled and said she would be careful but I HAVE to have it done. I don't know what this doctor is doing so differently and I don't want to be difficult and refuse this third pap. I know she has to go down there to look for things, I understand that she needs to check for strep b, I get she is a doctor. But I am terrified of this pain. I hate feeling like my concern for the pain is stupid because of how she seems to talk about it. I'm starting to become terrified she could do something I didn't consent to like strip my membranes or she could harm my cervix. My family just thinks I should do it and deal with it but I'm telling you, this pain is NOT normal and very severe, so that is why I don't really prefer to go through with it again. I'm almost to a point of I'm going to just walk out of the office if they insist on doing it without talking to me about the pain I'm receiving. Am I just being crazy? Has anyone had this too? What can I say or do for them to actually listen about this pain?