I feel the stress weighing in me so heavily lately

I'm married over a year. Been ttc since this Jan so this is month 9. I feel like the pressure so take the next step in my life is so heavy right now and I feel like I'm stuck and can't progress.

I need to buy a house.

I need to get pregnant.

I need to pay off some debt.

I need to get new tires on my car.

I need to find my own health insurance by the end of this yr since I lose what I have from my mom.

I need to buy dental insurance, get a root canal, and get my other 2 wisdom teeth removed.

I offered to possibly me a kidney donor for my husbands 8 yr old nephew if no one else in his family is a match as I am the same blood type and I felt good about it, but now looking into it, I'm scared. How will it affect my life in the future? What if my future child needs mine one day and I won't have a spare to give? What if my one left fails in the future? What if something goes wrong in surgery?

I need to help my husband get his green card and get his paperwork started but I'm so clueless and have so much on my plate.

I need a better job that possibly offer benefits and time off even though I love my job cooking, it's just not enough.

I need to be home more with my puppy and kitten and chinchillas so they get the loved and time the deserve.

To anyone still actually reading this novel, thank you. Honestly. Had to get these things off my chest before I burst into tears at work. Why is life so hard? I try my best to be a good person. I have a sponsor teen in Haiti that I spends hundreds in in clothing and makeup and supplies each year. I've personally gone there twice to help out. I spent all my summers through school going to other states and building houses for people who can't afford them. I've helped hand out meals on Sunday in a local impoverished town. I've rescued quite a few lost or injured animals and wildlife. And I love that I've done all those things and I love doing them without recognition, but why is life still so hard? Why can't I get pregnant when woman smoking crack and shooting up can and continue to do those things yet somehow sometimes get a healthy baby? When's the good karma gonna come my way?