My Abortion Experience 👼🏻❤️

To start off, I'm 17 years old. I first found out I was pregnant using a clear blue pregnancy test saying I was 3-4 weeks. I cried, and I didn't know what to do. I put the abortion off for about a month because I was terrified. But finally, I made an appointment at 10 weeks. I used to get really bad morning sickness everyday and I would feel shitty throughout the day. The symptoms were unbearable. I never thought anything like this would happen to me. I love this baby, but I can't have it at this point in my life. I'm not catholic but for the sake of hoping my baby will go somewhere amazing, I prayed no pain for her/him and that god would protect them and love them the way I couldn't. I still cry about it today.

Anyway, today was the day, September 15th at 12:30, I was booked for my appointment. I got there around 12:00 and I couldn't stop shaking. I was so nervous and scared and had a lot of anxiety. When I was inside the clinic, I was told to fill out paperwork and pay the fees, which I did. The counsellor asked if I was okay. I said "no.." and started crying. She gave me a hug and reassured me that everything was going to be okay. She told me I'm gonna feel painful cramps for about 3 minutes and I'm gonna feel tipsy and weird because of the medication they're gonna give me.

I was later called Into a room by a nurse who took my blood pressure and pricked my finger to see if I had negative or positive blood. She gave me two anxiety pills before anything else happens to make sure id be calm and relaxed. She asked me a lot of medical questions following that. I then followed her into another waiting room, where she gave me a gown to wear. I waited for about 25 minutes until my name was called. I was so scared at this point, I thought I was gonna throw up or pass out. Right away, they told me to sit up on the examination table, put my feet up and spread my legs. The gave me an ultrasound, as well as another vaginal ultrasound to see how developed the fetus was. When I saw it, I felt so much regret. I could see the arms and legs and I felt like such a bad person. Another nurse put IV sedation into my arm and I started to feel really dizzy. Everyone sounded like robots and I could barely see. The nurse was holding my hand the entire time, while the doctors started the procedure. I started crying and the nurse was trying to talk to me to distract me, but the pain was too much. I'm going to be honest, this was the most painful thing I've ever felt in my life. It just feels like pinches and really really bad cramps but also pressure and suction and pulling. It was shorter than I thought it would be. They gave me a pad and underwear after that and two nurses had to take me to the recovery room because I couldn't move. I sat there for awhile. I think about 30 minutes. I drank some water and snacked on a few crackers to make me feel better and help the medication wear off faster. The nurse came back to check on me, and checked my blood pressure. She also gave me a heating pad to help with the pain and cramps. The bleeding was very light, which was not expected at all. I fell asleep in the recovery room, feeling less dizzy when I woke up. I tried to sit up for awhile and then I got dressed. I still sat there for a bit after I was dressed to make sure I was okay to move and walk. I thanked the nursing and exited the clinic. Overall, there was a lot of support and I felt like this was the right thing to do. Everyone was kind and pleasant.

I've been feeling depressed and have been crying all day and having a lot of regret, but I know it'll pass. It's normal. This was the right decision for me, and I just wanted to share this with anyone who is going into have an abortion or is thinking of it.

Just make sure this is what you want 100% because you don't wanna make a mistake.