Had my first scan this morning.

Measuring at 5+2 which is a good 8 days behind where I thought I was. Thought I was 6+3 but apparently not.

I'm still terrified that my baby has stopped growing and developing, 2 miscarriages previously has made me petrified of any little thing.

While the scan showed a gestational sac and it matches my ovulation (which I honestly thought the OPK sticks were faulty, apparently not) my HCG was at higher levels than it should have been if I am 5+2 but was dead on for 6+3. Trying to read all the things that say HCG is a very rough guide but I read a thing last night that says over 10800 every baby scanned in a study showed a heartbeat on a US, whereas I couldn't even see a foetal pole.

It means that now I am further than my previous two miscarriages but I've thought I've been further along that them almost this whole time.

Gotta wait two weeks for my next scan, this is going to be hard. Tbh I'd rather sit there for two weeks with the stick up me watching it grow.

This first few weeks is haaard.