kinda upset but trying not to be

I'm staying at a hotel with my bf bc he's in the oilfield and he got done today and is back in the room but he's so drunk that he's laying in his own piss and I got him food like he wanted and I'm just like worried but also kinda hurt like why didn't he wait to drink with me bc he would tell me he's a loner and doesn't drink with the guys but they rigged down and was so happy. I'm trying not to be really upset but he said some things being drunk idk what he might mean by it and I just feel like crying and like I'm all alone with him here with me. he's sleeping in the closest right now. I had an ex who always would drink and made me drink with him which is why I have a problem with him drinking a lot and we had a compromise of him getting back in this job of no heavy drinking or anything he used to do. I mean come on what is the point of drinking when you're laying in your own piss? sorry I needed to rant