Racist mother .. 💔

I'm 22 don't really have a "family" except my mother but she is very racist she has never liked black people as for me i love my black men always have. My mom hated it i never had my boyfriends around my mother because she would call them a nigger or a monkey. anyways i have a son he's 4 years old i have only been with 1 white guy and i ended up having a baby with him my son has blonde hair blue eyes white ovb lol I'm mixed pr , Cape Verde, and Indian. So its been about 3 1/2 years since we split because he cheated on me with his boss while i was at home taking care of our son. My mom loves him says he's not a bad guy he had a good job took care of me. i didn't work so my mom was like he was stable had his own house blah blah blah now I've been with my boyfriend whom is a sexy Haitian 😍 i been with him for almost 2 years and we are expecting when i told my mother she basically told me she wanted to pay for my abortion i said no i was keeping the baby. She told me that this baby is going to ruin my life and have nigger hair who wants a baby with nappy hair. And that she hopes i have a miscarriage shes in love with my first born because he is white she said if she decides to still talk to me she will only be around for my first born and act like the one I'm carrying is non existent she doesn't want to see him she said she doesn't know if she could do it and "disowns" me and if i marry him she wont come to my wedding. it really makes me sick shes all i have i don't know any of my family like cousins my father or anyone on her side of the family for that matter so it really bothers me that shes acting this way , my boyfriend really wants her to like him and i told him shes never going to cave and not bother because shes only going to say hurtful shit yet he still wanted to speak to her and she basically said so much fucked up shit to him and about his family. it doesn't matter how good he is to me or that he makes me BEYOND happy now he doesn't make a lot of money for me to be a house wife but i don't even want to be he makes decent enough money and i work too we are looking for a nice apartment but just because its not a house and he's not taking care of me basically he's not good enough she said she sees me being alone raising this baby on my own that he's a nigga with a nigga mentality so he's just going to leave me because thats what black men do and they cheat I'm disgusted with my mother I'm so ashamed to have her as my mother just because someone is white doesn't mean they are better then someone who is black. the men she picked were all drunks and had no money and abused her we was never that close until one day when i was younger i saved her life she was going to die she was getting abused so bad i was like 11 seeing my mom being dragged around the house hair falling out face smashed bruised bitten i didn't even recognize her i called police and continued to try to save her when we heard the police phone call i made and hearing her scream because i never hung up the phone she broke down i had her back from then on we got close and she told me she wouldn't be alive if i wasn't there if he took her if her room he probably would have killed her. So that goes to show you just because your white doesn't mean your a saint. my man has never laid his hands on me and i told her don't talk down on me for who I'm with like the men she picked was winners i felt like shit for bringing that up but i wanted her to open her eyes call me a shit bag if you want but honestly its her lost i know my baby will feel so much love from my boyfriends family they are so excited and i know my baby deserves nothing but love no matter what color my baby is. I just feel sad that the only person i had is not in my life anymore but maybe its for the best because i would never want someone around my child who is going to treat them like they will be nothing in life just based on a color white black yellow orange whatever the fuck we are all the same under our skin. I hope one day she will come around but my boyfriend thinks i should never talk to her again because she wanted my child to die.