Date night

I don't even know how to feel about this. Ive not been on a date in a VERY long time, almost two years. And even then that date wasn't very formal or new it was a rekindled flame with my first love. All fire and ice. Then I was raped. Fell pregnant. Truthfully I still don't know if I'm ready to date. My son is 9 months, it's been over a year since my encounter. But I literally don't know HOW to feel. I'm just so comfortable in my solitude I don't know if these couple hours of my absolute precious time that could be spent snuggling up with my son are going to be worth trading for some stranger I met once. I'm praying the night goes well and I don't regret it or get sick from my anxiety. 😩 any tips? I feel like a stranger to myself. Me, dating, and I'm a MOM? Like what? Where has life gone? How am I HERE? Ugh