What’s wrong with me..?

I’m going to sound like a little kid but I’m under 18, anyways, I brought home a guy to my strict parents (whom never let me do anything) and he was so respectful towards my family & I met his family & even went to a cook out w them.. then out of no where he broke up with me. Out of hatred and sadness I changed my hair. My makeup. My body. And every guy I talk to for remotely a day wants to use me and play with me like I’m a toy.😔 I’m already stressed out to the max w hoco stuff, keeping up with my more advanced classes and regular classes. He just is always on my mind still. All his friends hate me or make fun of me. I just can’t do this any more. Guys keep playing me like I’m just a object. I’m seriously like just done with everything I can’t keep my depression hid anymore. I can’t keep anything bottled up. I can’t do anything anymore but cry. That’s all I ever wanna do now. I look at my body and I don’t understand why I have to be so fat and ugly. I just hate myself so much for not being how I want to be. I sound stupid but I just can’t. I can’t keep trying to be who I want to be if nothing I try works.

I don’t know what to do anymore.

I can’t do this anymore.