I feel like a shitty mom...

I was breastfeeding and at 6 weeks we learned that my son has a severe dairy/soy allergy, so I went dairy free (before we found out he was also allergic to soy). His allergy got worse and we got sent to the ER for extra testing and the doctors decided to put him on Neocate. I feel like such a shitty mom because I’m unable to breastfeed. I was trying to go dairy/soy free but I keep messing up and accidentally eating something I’m not supposed to. 😞 my boyfriend kinda blames me because instead of putting him on formula to begin with, I tried going dairy free so he thinks it’s my fault that our son had to go to the ER and get an unnecessary IV....