School

I'm homeschooled and the only reason I got into homeschooling is because I have really bad anxiety and being around people makes me feel physically sick because I think they think I'm ugly (it's not something that I can just think away it doesn't work like that) I've been doing really bad in school because I'm not putting in effort when I am usually in school I do really good but I don't want to start school unless I lose weight, I kind of want to be in school to make friends and to do good and get to experience high school but at the same time I mentally can't, I recently moved from a very Hispanic place to a different state with racism towards hispanics and it makes me nervous that everyone will treat me differently because I'm Hispanic and fat, I need advice on everything pretty much (I know I sound ignorant but I need advice)