Feel so broken

Need hope so desperately. So let's start at the beginning I've been looking after babies since I was 14 my sister had kids young so I helped out a lot then I met my husband who has a child so I've spent a lot of my life around children I knew being a mum was what I was meant to be it just felt right. We have been trying for 10 months now nothings has worked we tried the doctors but turns out where I love because my husband has a child they won't help give me treatment until I'm 35 so my doctors won't even test me because they say what's the point when I can't have treatment. fast forward to this week I've been feeling exhausted sleeping constantly which is unlike me having hot flushes nausea was convinced it had finally happened for me then this morning bfn I just don't know what to do anymore just wondered if there was any ladies out the got a bfp without doctors help and if so what they did I am close to giving up hope