On the ledge

I am so over this pregnancy. I am tired of being in pain and no one, not even my doctors understanding what I am going through. I just wrote her my last cry for help.... for her to see me...help me figure out what to do next or what I should be doing differently.... before I look into other options. because I cannot do this. even my fiancee is being a bit of an ass. whenever something is wrong he acts as if I am over exaggerating because he has a son and that pregnancy was much smoother. I mean, I have people who care but... this just isn't worth it right now. every other week I am having mental break downs. my job is physically draining. don't have any friends. and everyone keeps telling me what I should do but it all feels so hard. and somewhere in the midst of all these feelings I still don't wanna let anyone down.