I don't know what to do anymore...

***Backstory***

I saw my boyfriend for the first time in a week today. I was kind of expecting a little something, like a little more than just kisses. Didn't have to give me sex, or oral, just a small something. He wasn't really in the mood for anything, which fine. But if I'm not in the mood, he still pushes it and it ends up happening, so I did the same thing to him today, just trying to get anything. I got a bit upset with him, which I realize was a bit selfish of me. But it lead to this bit here. And I'm just so lost guys. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't want to leave him, but I can't stay in something like this either.....