Indecisive..

I am currently 12w and 3 days pregnant. The day I found out that I was pregnant, my boyfriend automatically said that he didn’t want me to keep it because he felt that we weren’t financially ready. I had tried to reason with him and told him that if we couldn’t pull ourselves together within 9 months, then something would be totally wrong, and that we should try to prepare ourselves. He had taken some time to think about it and agreed. Since then, he has never been to any of the appointments, and been keeping distant. I was staying with him for a while, but recently moved back in with my mom. My mom 100% does not support my pregnancy, which brought my boyfriend back to his original feelings about an abortion. I’m really upset that he waited so long to voice his true feelings because I’ve gotten so attached. His sister suggests that I move into a shelter and get public assistance, but I really don’t want to grow my baby up like that. I have an abortion scheduled for Tuesday, but I know if I get it, I’m going to be an emotional wreck. I’ve gone thru weeks of morning sickness and vomiting and appointments and constantly spitting everyday. My boobs are much bigger (they were already big to start with) and my stomach shows. I just want to cry.

Side Note: I applied to go back to school for the Spring 2018 semester and a bunch of jobs. I’m not sure if I can juggle a baby, class, and work.