A letter to my daughter

Today I found a letter to my daughter. You might think, "so what, I write lettersto my kids". This wasn't just any letter, it was a letter I wrote when she was 9 months old and I was dying. I had, had my gallbladder removed. The surgeon messed up and with in a month all my organs were shuting down. My liver was failing, I've never done drugs or been a drinker. My kidneys were failing again I've never done drugs or been a drinker. I had pancreatitis so bad I couldn't even drink water. My body was in shock from gallstones stuck in a bunch of places they shouldn't have been and shouldn't have been able to get to. I wrote a letter to my daughter when I was told I was going to die. Telling her I loved her and would never choose to leave her. I explained that I wanted to be at her first day of daycare , pre-school, kindergarten, high school, college and at her wedding. I wrote my favorite quote in which you can see a tear landed on, telling her "my love is like the wind you might not be able to see it but you can feel it" from a walk to remember. I started crying. I don't even remember writing this letter to her, I don't remember because I was so sick and in the hospital. You can tell I was a little out of it because I repeated myself over and over. I never told anyone about that letter, I'm pretty sure no one knew it existed when my hubby found it tonight in a box of my old things we were going through. He didn't read it until I have him permission and was balling my eyes out. She is 3 now. She is an amazing little girl, I can't imagine what her life would have been with out me, I'm so thankful she didnt have to find that out. Most people didn't know I was dying or almost died until after I was better. I got better right before she turned one. My whole life got better after she turned one. I got a better place to live, I found her step dad, I got a clean bill of health and now trying for baby number 2. I felt like sharing. Now it's out.