child care issues

Other half works away so I'm home alone with our 2yr old son. I also work 3-4 days a week cause i wasn't able to be a stay home mom. Been tryna find baby sitters cause i work in the weekend but it ain't working out. So now i've decided to send him to my parents' house for 2 months in another part of the country, so i can have time to quit my job and sort myself out cos ive hit rock bottom. I'm not a bad mom for needing a break am i? ive been alone with him since he was born cos his father works away