So I posted on here about a week ago.

My boyfriend of nine months (3 or so small break ups in that, they only lasted hours to a day), refused to let me use his phone to look up a recipe for the pork dinner I was making him.

My phone went out. It wouldn’t go on online or anything.

I already had the meat thawed and ready.

My only option was to use his phone to look up the recipe.

He refused to let me use it. I kept to myself but I was very concerned.

Instead he looked up the recipe and took screen shots. Then texted it to me.

They wouldn’t download. My internet was out!

So he said ok I’ll read it to you.

Lol Seriously?

I can’t just hold the phone while I work through the recipe?

HERES THE UPDATE:

I later questioned him about this. Never in our nine months have I doubted his loyalty. till now.

He said he WAS NOT talking to anyone else.... I pushed and he finally admitted that he was. More than one girl too.

He swears it was completely friendly and not inappropriate.

The next day he tells me he doesn’t know if he wants to be with me anymore.

That this other girl has him thinking and questioned if we’re right for each other.

But doesn’t want to break up and just needs to figure stuff out.

Well I been trying to be understanding. I been there where I broke up with him because I questioned us.

A few days later, I asked if he was still talking to the other women. He said no.

When I showed up at his house, we slept together.

And paranoia hit me.

“Did you really stop talking to those other girls?”

He said yes. Then I asked to see his phone.

This is the first time in my life I actually asked to look through someone’s phone.

He refused.

And then said “fine, yes other girls text me”

It killed me.

I asked him, if it was appropriate the why couldn’t I see?

He said he didn’t want me to get upset for talking to another girl, even if it was friendly, he new I would get upset and wanted to avoid that.

Now I just don’t know what to do. He swears it’s friendly. That he doesn’t sext or anything.

He just needs a mental break to figure out what he wants.

During this break he still wants to talk me as if nothing has happened but he’s also still is talking to these other girls.

What the hell am I supposed to do?

I don’t trust him anymore.

And I can’t stand that I’m sitting here trying to be understanding while he figures himself out.

I’m trying to do the right thing for him but there’s this horrible feeling in my gut.

What do I do? Trust him or not?