i have had it with this MS

im writing this as i am breaking down having a panic attack because i am so tired of going days without eating because my body just cant. this is my second baby and with my first it was easier cause i planned her and went through mc after mc and was so happy to finally have her i didnt care about puking every single day but this baby i feel bad for saying this but i just want this to be OVER. i want my life back. i feel like shit because im so weak and sick and always in the bathroom puking that i cant even take care of my 1 year and 9 month old daughter that i already have. she doesnt deserve this and i just dont know if i can do it any longer cause my body feels like its giving up and i just wanna be able to eat and do normal things like brush my hair and clean my roon and house but i jist cant because when im sitting i have nausea when im standing i have nausea wjen im sleeping i have nausea i always have freaking nausea and vomiting like whyyy me?