How should i get help?

I have such a destroyed broken mind. I have an ex who was soooooo shitty, he hurt me emotionally sooo bad that after 2 years all that still hunts me & it still hurts me, idc about him but the fact that i got hurt soo bad makes me cry til today. I have now a new boyfriend which we're gonna be 2yrs in December & i sometimes overthink stuff too much like i start wondering if he's gonna do me the same things my ex did & why not. I have GAD & it's eating me alive, i was doing sooo good for like a year & a half & in February or march i got a panic attack & since then i started fearing having another one & my anxiety started escalating quick again & it got so bad that it takes so much from me to even go to the movies with my boyfriend or something. I think i am now depressed because of how down my anxiety puts me, how i can't enjoy the things i used to do. I seek for help & i chose a Christian counselor & i have been open but she doesn't seem to touch every topic that i tell her about, she focuses more on me thinking positive every time a bad thought comes & im not sure if that's supposed to help in the long run but i just feel desperate i need help asap, my mind is eating me alive, i feel trapped in my own head & i can't seem to find a way to escape. Idk who to see or how to help myself, any advice or past experiences are appreciated thanks!