Just updates

I got pregnant naturally but I miscarried around week 5 in sep 2014, and I have been trying since Jan 2015. Have been to the doctors here and there did blood work and SA found some minor issue but nothing was a major cause until I did HSG to check my tubes and a saline sonography to check my uterus shape. I had a blocked tube and something in my uterus that the doctor says it might be from my previous MC. I also did hormonal Blood-work FSH, AMH, LH, prolactin they all between the normal range but slightly closer to the abnormal, I honestly not that worry about that blood results because hormones can change month to month lets just hope it’ll be better when I retest next month, however, our shock was also that hubby SA had low morphology but the doctor told us not to worry about it and we have to focus on the tubal issue.

Now, I’m scheduled for a laparoscopy in Dec for my blocked tube and my uterus. The next step for us would be IUI in Jan 18. This Jan will be my third year of trying, I never thought that I’ll get through the first year how about the third, I’m honestly hopeless I’m doing everything while deep in my heart I feel that It’s not going to work due all the heartbreaks and disappointments that I have been through. I’m even afraid to have a little hope. Getting pregnant is no the “impossible mission” in my eyes.

Thank you for reading, this post was to put down the feelings that I’m holding and share them. Hoping that would change after hearing encouraging thoughts.