ttc over weight and 33

Vielka

my bday is coming up 34 As I say that tears well up. I'm married for the end time and not where I would like to be. I want a family and unable to get pregnant. Doctors just say lose weight stress less and you will concieve. So my best friend just got married and is announcing she is prego. I'm happy for her but then I somber in my sorrow of when will it happen for me. Am I horrible?