Am I alone? I am soon celebrating 20 yrs of my bulimia... 😞

I have been struggling with bulimia since my teen yrs, and that is almost 2 decades ago. I can't believe I still struggle with it...

I have always been sporty, so no one suspect anythg when I lose my extra pounds.

My height is 5'5 and at 13 I was weighing 165 pounds when it started.

It has always been on and off, I also got sick few times and my weight finally went down to 107 pounds when I turn 18yo. At this point I stop exercising completely. And I still binge eat and throw up to maintain that weight, that is until I got pregnant in early 2016.

Surprise surprise, I gained ALL my weight again during pregnancy! It is depressing. Now I am still at 135, and I don't know how to lose weight without bulimia... I feel I have no other choice.

Its so sad when after a year of the birth of my baby, ppl ask if I am pregnant again...

I feel it has been quite a dark journey... and I see no light at the end of the tunnel... Is there anyone out there facing the same thg? 😔😔😔😔😔😔