Missed m/c...

Yesterday I went to my 13 week scan to find a baby the size of 8 weeks.... we were heartbroken and I cannot believe even after 5 weeks my body still thought i was pregnant. I had a D&C; today.... it was supposed to be the easiest option for me.... They couldn't find any good veins... I ended up being put under by gas.... I woke up having a panic attack, told I had lost possibly up to or more than 800mls of blood and I was being kept for 6 hours. I have had so much pain medication (fentanyl, oxycodone) and I'm so dizzy and tired.... I thought I'd be able to start the healing process quickly.... but this all just adds to the heartache 😭 I don't know what to do with myself....