Unnecessary trip to the ER

Started feeling bad about 1:00pm and by 3:30 was just feeling awful. Hot flashes, shortness of breath, dizziness, racing pulse with chest tightness, headache, and Braxton Hicks contractions. Maybe a panic attack? Maybe exhaustion? It’s been a rough month and maybe it’s all taking its toll on me. Called my OB and she told me to go to the ER so I went. After IV fluids and Tylenol and lying down, I felt much better. All tests came back fine and the baby and I are perfectly healthy. So then why do I feel like such a fool and failure for letting my emotions and fatigue get the best of me? Making my husband and my friend miss work and for spending $250 on a copay we can’t afford.

I’m so disappointed in myself that I can’t hack it. But I’m also working 4 part-time jobs, 31 weeks pregnant, diagnosed with gestational diabetes, and a chef’s wife (works 60 hours a week) and have a 3 year old boy and no local family support or money for extra child care (except for daytime daycare so I can work.) So maybe I’m rightfully overwhelmed with juggling it all alone most days and worrying about our financial problems.

Being a woman is hard! Maybe a trip to the ER is what we need to remind us (and those around us) that we are only human.

I still feel like a failure.