help me with my thoughts

I have been having some bad thoughts associated with my anxiety I think. I tend to get obsessive thoughts and worries. having bad thoughts about god. Well to counteract the bad thoughts and stop them I basically keep thinking 'I love the Lord ' 24/7. It's hard on me because I feel like it's obsessive and I'm not free. idk how to describe it. I believe in God and have always been christian. I believe God died on the cross for our sins our god is kind, loving, merciful. forgiving. and full of glory and grace. but for 1-2 weeks this has gone on. I have prayed a lot. I know god is listening and loves me but this is still happening. I remind myself that god is not harsh and he's not standing over us ready to send us to hell at every bad thought because he wants to bring us all to heaven. I have a history of anxiety and obsessive thought. I'm miserable because these bad thoughts are just not true. I have an appointment to get on anxiety meds this usually helps quiet my mind. but I'm scared they don't work. Please help me and please don't judge this is very hard for me I'm struggling and trying to rely on the Lord because I know he carries me in my struggling hour. I know that he will not forsake me and even when I feel alone and feel like their is only one set of footprints that he carries me. I remember this trying to find comfort in God's love. Am I the only one who struggles in this way?