A new journey - fertility after loss

Some of you who have been on here a while may know my story, but if not, I'll give you the short version.

Almost a year in to my relationship, I got pregnant. We weren't trying. It was an accident and a failed pill. We accepted it, we adjusted accordingly, and then we slowly began to feel the excitement. WE WERE GOING TO BE PARENTS! I came from a broken family, and my partner is very close with his family, we both wanted this. We wanted a family of our own. I wanted to be the mother for my child that I never had, and he just loves kids. Sadly, there was no heartbeat. I knew that first pregnancies don't always stick, but the pain and grief struck me all the same. My doctor suggested a D&C; and I went for it because what else could I do? I felt like a walking graveyard. A week after the D&C; I got VERY sick. I wasn't eating or sleeping well, but this felt like more than that. My resting heart rate was sitting at 120bpm and I couldn't breath properly. I got rushed to hospital and had an emergency CT scan after blood results showed it could be a clot. I spent 9 hours waiting for the scan and 2 more waiting for my results. All the while the lady in the bed next to me had an ultrasound after having a fall and saw her beautiful babies heart beating strong. It was bittersweet.

Anyway, short story. This past year was continuous illness. I got constant headaches, I can't take deep breaths, I shake constantly, I have yellow stool (yeah TMI), I don't sleep well, I suffer bouts of AWFUL depression and anxiety, I don't get an appetite, I suffer painful periods, and worst of all, I have the MTHFR gene and I am not allowed to get pregnant until I am recovered. I only just recently, after spending $800 and seeing 7 different doctors discovered what's wrong with me. I am anemic, I have a parasite invasion in my stomach, and I am SEVERELY estrogen dominant. Today marks the day I start my recovery, finally! Today is the beginning of my rainbow baby journey. This is what I take daily, aside from some other stuff I couldn't fit in the frame. It seems insane, and yes it's really hard, but it's worth it.

I can't wait until the day I get to see those 2 pink lines again and KNOW that everything will be ok.