Trying ...

Trying to fix my life. I have a partner who is absolutely incredible and I have gotten too comfortable. I have an issue with my emotional bullshit and clearly does not work when I vent to him about it. I never had a proper family setting I was in the system in my teenage years I am trying to learn basic human every day things and I am 22 years old. I don’t want anybody ever feeling this way like they are not good enough. I have a few amazing jobs and work very hard each and every day but some days I just want to wallow. . . Is this completely unhealthy? I don’t even know how to feel when I’m not working anymore I’m just numb and I hate myself