I’m tired

I think I’m going to put TTC on the back burner for now. After 3 miscarriages in a year and starring at tests till I’m cross eyed and literally obsessing over seeing those two lines again I’m throwing in the towel. I’m physically, emotionally, and mentally exhausted. I never thought I’d say this but I’m ready to give up. Not permanently just momentarily. I’m tired of feeling like such a failure and beating myself up for something I just can’t control. Negative frer day before expected af 👎🏻 so I’m done. Baby dust to everyone.