Please tell me if I’m crazy 😭😭

So I miscarried in March and then due to the amount of time we have been TTC my OH had semen tests. One 3 months ago and one just now. In between tests my OH stopped smoking weed to try and improve his count - and it worked, his count doubled...great news yeah? Nope! The doctor advised him to not smoke at all going forward and stop binge drinking whilst I have the dye test and some more bloods done, as we’re leaving the fertility clinic, he says that he’s going to start smoking weed again.

This has honestly just made me want to split up - we’ve just bought a house, he said he would do anything that the fertility clinic advised so we can have a family and he’s just ignoring it now as his count has doubled. I can’t believe it. I just feel so let down. What was the point in going to the clinic if he won’t take the advice to help us conceive?? I’m so heartbroken. He’s now saying I sound crAzy saying I want to split up ....is he right???? Xx the thing is , I’m 36 and time is running out. Even the doctor says we don’t want to hang around due to my age. So he could make it all so much easier by continuing to be better. Xx