Day 43 no period

Third time in my life/20’s I’ve went through an off time. I mean it’s not too concerning to me I’m not hard on myself when odd things occur, it just piques my interest and make me go on soul searching tangents.

The first time I went through this particular situation I had an ultrasound done: my uterine lining thickened, I guess I had a fertilized egg. I was stressing and didn’t enjoy life at the time so I see how that could have affected my cycle and/or that pregnancy not having a chance. Of course I ended up with a heavy flow. It was spring time 2013.

The next peculiar time, right before New Year 2015, instead of having a period, by way of my menstrual cup, I was able to observe that I was collecting some kind of discharge (it wasn’t like ovulation discharge I normally have, it was mucous-y) and it would be a significant amount like a small pool of it, let’s say for 10 days to give it a timing. I’m sure I logged it. To me it was symbolic of times changing, changes in general, or a sign that I’d better get my life together ASAP or evolve or something. I was sincerely a lone soul/wolf for a real, real, long time (a fervent one, nonetheless ☝🏽). I don’t remember if I ended up getting my period soon after but I think I’m certain I was back to a normal cycle by the next assumed cycle.

Now I’m going through a period where I haven’t gotten mine. I’m on day 43 with a no show, a negative pregnancy test and a cleared pregnancy blood test. I’m simultaneously experiencing hives/rashes/itchiness out of nowhere, if I ate anything out of the regular I missed it, I literally blamed it on strong cleaning product fumes because. Anyone with any sense of the body will tell you anything that affects your respiratory system can only antagonize the respiratory system, but smokers get high off the release into the blood stream, no? So why wouldn’t something affect me by way of lungs-bloodstream-etc, similarly? Both my medical background mom and doctor shut the possibility down. I’m quiet about it but I’m still open to the idea. Anyway, I normally vent out the bathroom for 10-15 minutes before I start scrubbing since it’s too strong it disrupts my upper head respiratory airways and I have to get fresh outdoor air. But this time I was sick of a disgusting shower, that I just worked through it, walking in and out of the bathroom to breathe and clear the fumes from my head. (I share the bathroom with my sister but she’ll never take initiative over the bathroom and that’s okay.) I can’t tell you what I did or came into contact with out of my norm aside of not being careful and hasty with the fumes this time. Maybe I’ll even include this concurrence in a search. I went to the allergist but I was so focused on discomfort of my hives that we didn’t discuss my cycle. (Sometimes I feel like doctors have the answers, for the amount of time they’ve been in the field, I just believe they’re paid to buy time and beat around the bush. I don’t 100% trust them all anyway but what can I do. For now he just bases it on hereditary reasons which is believable, my sister occasionally got random skin dryness into her teenage years be it a small rash, random psoriasis, and excessive hair sebum, and my mom had an autoimmune disease while she was pregnant with me and was on steroids and possibly other medication that my have taken effect on my skin’s general sensitivity, it’s just now beginning to appear.) It’s unsettling to not know exactly the cause of this. I’d be at peace just knowing of the causes. I forgot I got blood work done. My cells are producing histamine to fight something but we don’t know what’s making them go haywire if for any real reason or if they’re just out of wack, hopefully for just this one time.

Like I totally want to sweat it out, vegan it out, wrap my hives in healing herbs lol. My mom’s, sister’s, and my own periods are usually in sync. My sister first, then me, then my mom. My sister always suffered from bad cramps but a cycle or two (maybe even three) ago who she was having cyst related problems in one ovary which caused her to skip that period so I entertained that lead for my situation for a bit.... My mom isn’t affected though.

It’s also been brought to my attention a few years ago that some “naturalists” believe that long periods aren’t natural, the healthier or closer to nature you are the less and less days you experience a period, but I’m NOOOWHERE near that! 😂 whatever.

I actually expect those cramp pangs that let you know Aunt Flo is imminent but I only had the first slight one in the series, the kind before the next one that makes you certain it’s period time. Only 2 days ago did I catch one actual cramp and it was terrible so I was like FINALLY. Still nothing, my symptoms are coming on so slow. Next my labial skin gets sensitive in that one spot it always does, and I can’t wear chemically treated pads and have to apply ointment as a protection because that area will be extra and actually cut open. I only felt that for a couple hours and then gone. I really don’t know what to expect and I’m making myself worked up.

I’m 26 now, I’m on day 2 of doing something about my high BMI and my life still isn’t as well pieced together as it could be but I truly am working on it. I’m just going to put that in consideration. Maybe I shouldn’t? Like I can’t not consider my spiritual alignment and where I should be in life at least by a little. Hakuna matata for now I’m giving myself a break.

I’m curious about any of your opinions or similar experiences, suggestions, and anything, spiritually or practically or both. Please be as open or as guiding (whatever leads you) as you’d like I’m happy to be this open and to be sharing. ❤️

*my posts are usually this long I can never keep concise, I’m trying! They are far and few I’ll give myself that. 💓 Thank you to those who’ve read this! This will just be another time I was a strong female in my womanhood story, just like the many who came before me and are to come after. So life goes.