Life sucks

I feel so stupid right now. I haven’t been this depressed in a long time and even after 2 years of therapy, I’m sitting hear crying and it’s been like 20 minutes and don’t know how to make myself feel better. I don’t want to be alone and all I want is my boyfriend to come hold me, but he’s out with friends. I so badly want to ask him to come be with me, but don’t want to be needy and ruin his guy time. He doesn’t even know I’ve been depressed. It’s been for a few days now since my boss told me she’s closing the business and doing it on her own and won’t be able to have any employees a month from now. Like I know I’ll be okay in the end, but right now I’m just angry. And on top of that, I got my period for the second time this month and idk why and I’m like a hormonal monster and also, I keep losing weight and can’t fit into anything anymore and I just want to cry when I try to wear a cute outfit that I have or go shopping cuz nothing fits. Idk like maybe it’s all connected somehow. It would make sense. It just sucks. I feel like whenever things are good something has to happen and ruin my happiness and it’s just really killing my motivation and usual optimism. Idk what to do with myself rn.