Today was supposed to be my due date

Today was supposed to be my due date. I was expecting my first child on this day. But instead other unexpected plans happened.

I miscarried at 12w4d at the end of May 😭💔 I had a D&E; that same night, stayed at the hospital due to complications. Then 2 days after that I had a D&C; to remove a major blood clot. It was a long, stressful, sad week at the hospital filled with so much heart break.

But today I was supposed to become that little ones mother.. but instead I'm 19w5d pregnant with my rainbow. My heart is hurting so bad and I'm still longing to hold the baby I never met in my arms. I can't even begin to describe how thankful I am for my rainbow and how excited I am to see my rainbow on ultrasound tomorrow but I can't lie.. today has been hard 😔