I just want to be pregnant

I understand that some people on here or in life will judge me when I say that, but after having a chemical in april I've craved it ever since. We aren't actively trying, but we don't use protection at all. I just don't understand why it won't happen again. I crave it so bad. It was devastating to deal with the chemical. So devastating. I've pushed those emotions down for so long and I know I'm not like 30 and have an amazing job, but me and my fiancé support ourselves and I just wish we could have a little one. I'm sorry I just had to vent guys. Have a good night y'all. Baby dust to everyone