Getting worried because I can’t “see” or feel baby at all. I feel disappointed in myself that I am not feeling connected with my little peanut. 😔

I’m 17 weeks today. I still have no bump and have not felt baby yet. I know it’s still early to feel baby move at all, but I wish something would happen so I felt confident peanut is okay. I have my 20 week anatomy scan on Monday and am so anxious. We will also find out the gender hopefully. We got to hear the heartbeat at 12 weeks but did not get to see the baby. I think it’s messing with my head a little bit and why I don’t feel pregnant at all yet. I never thought after trying so hard for this baby that I would have trouble connecting, but I really am and I feel disappointed in myself. 😔