should i keep my faith ?

okay so , i’m in a relationship , december 6 will be nine mouths with her ( yes, i’m lesbian get over it ) and we have seen each other but we can’t now because my mom doesn’t like that’s she ( four years older ) and so now it’s a long distance relationship . i love her to death , like i put my all into us . i’ve already bought her so much stuff and i write her letters everyday until we see each other so she can read them and know there isn’t a day where she hasn’t been on my mind . she’s the love of my life . and i don’t want to lose her .. i want to spend my life with her , i want her to become my wife .