Am I the only one ,🤨 I know I can’t be ⁉️⁉️

So lately ive been noticing I’ve been trying to test without my husband being home because of the embrassment of having to say it’s negavtive outloud . It’s kinda like if he’s not there and isn’t aware I tested I take the lost alone .. Im currently 9 DPO &’ I took a test the other day just to get the urge out of my system and it was a BPN , but my urge to test is working up again

I was thinking of going to buy the first response test that gives you the results 6 days sooner before your missed period being that I have two different apps with two different expected period start dates but both dates are closer than 6 days. I find myself waiting to test more only due to my breast pain .. I’ve had it for a couple days but it gotten worst since the other day

Ladies should I test or wait it out ?